I've tried it at the age of 10, again at 12.
I failed each time obviously.
I'm doing my homework about overdosing on drugs...I'm having a hard time finding anything helpful. Any one have any input?
I've always known this to be my way out. I want to make sure this time when I try it, it'll work 110%.
I've always known this to be my way out. I want to make sure this time when I try it, it'll work 110%.
I'd be glad to be a "victim" to a murder. If anyone's interested. As long as I can be high/intoxicated whatever. Numb and in a dreamish world, at least to feel out of this world during the time of death.
You know the speech.
ReplyDeleteI will obviously tell you what anyone else would tell you, that this is not the way out, that you shouldn't be thinking about things this way. I wouldn't be wrong for telling you this, but I would be wrong for telling you this without first understanding how you've gotten here. Pretty shit at this point yeah ?
So hey, talk first, die later ... who knows, maybe not even die at all.
Makes sense, I feel like I've lost it all. I've only lost what I feel was the love of my life. I've had relationships prior, and I've seen things go sour between others. I study relationships. But this one wasn't supposed to end. Not for no reason. And it sounds like and I feel like I'm 16 with my first heartbreak....but I'm not...and this isn't but it feels like I'm dying on the inside. Everything we did, we did together. And now, it's like half my lung is missing, you know, it's harder to feel satisfied with breathing.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you just feel a little lost because of the shock of it all, doesn't have to always be so, keep in mind that before all of this, you where still you, you still had friends, you still had family, a job, school ? In short, you existed as yourself before he and you where one. All that makes you who you are is still there, it would be a shame to think you've lost any of that.
ReplyDeleteA person who suffers a heart attack, survives cancer, or survives an accident, never lives life the same way again. The personality is dented, into a different perspective and direction. Almost every experience one endures that tugs at the string of their emotions and impacts their life, will not go without change.
ReplyDeleteWise words, I agree.
ReplyDeleteBut almost everything that takes place is 50/50.
It wouldn't be fair to have yourself jaded by this one instance, love will come again.